Should Have Made Plans

Last Night

I attended a fiesta last night (Friday) at the home of a guy named Holt (who I dont really know). I'm fairly certain it was birthday party for Andrew Lancaster, but it basically ended up being a gathering of every person I have ever known from Goldsboro and the surrounding areas. It was pretty deep and I went in there convinced that it would quickly turn into a crowded room full of drunken redneckery, luckily I was proven very wrong. It was actually pretty chill and I got to hang out with a ton of people I hadn't seen in a while. The night was full of events that I cant describe in detail here due to issues of legality, but it was by no means a seedy affair. My night was ended early when word got around that the cops were there (erroneous). It was good while it lasted though and I hope there is another party around the Gold City soon. This p.o.s. town is incredible every now and again.

"[Goldsboro] is the worst city ever, but I wouldn't have wanted to grow up anywhere else"

- Daniel Montilla

Reflections you say?

Truth be told, I'm a hopelessly reflective guy. I dont say that to try to convince anyone that I'm incredibly intellectual or that I'm so awesome or anything, I only mean to say that I spend an unhealthy amount of time thinking. I say all that to say this: the ultimate reason I started this blog was to use it as a catharsis, to use it to let some of the more prominent subjects of contemplation out into the open and avoid an explosion in my head. As a tool for this type of expression, this blog will often contain pieces of varying size that will be concerned with things that bother or excite me. These sections will be generally more emotionally charged than my topical pieces and I just want to warn everyone that I am completely and totally out of my mind. Try not to judge me too harshly for anything I may say or think poorly of me because of my need to vocalize (textualize?) things.

The following is an example :

I am madly and irreversibly in love with the friends I have managed to make thus far in my life. I came to this realization a little over a year ago, and it hit me like a sack of bricks. Now, a year into this realization that I rely on the friends I have for my own emotional stability, I am beginning to accept that as my nature. At first, it scared me that I relied on others for happiness "Am I weak because of that? Should I be able to happy without the influence of others?" Questions like that bounced around my head for some time until I was able to finally say in full confidence that I am completely ok with it. I, Carl Teachey, do not possess the ability to be comfortable without companionship. Aside from the implications this makes about my friendships and how valuable they are to me, it does a lot to explain why I have a nasty habit of pursuing relationships (the kind with girls) to the point of my own misery. This topic will be discussed at length in a later entry, but you want to prepare yourself for the immense irrationality on my part that will be revealed on that day. - Back to my friends - I love em. I need em. I want to take this opportunity to thank anyone who has put up with me over the years. I'm an arrogant asshole, and yet you have accepted that and seen something else in me. I appreciate it ...really. I define periods of my adolescent life by the group of friends that I relied on the most at the time. Here, for the first time ever, I will map out these periods for the public. I do this as a method of trying to at least vaguely reference individuals who have been especially important to me.

Aycock Era I - this period ran from 7th grade to roughly spring of sophomore year. It was characterized by bowling trips, rides with parents, and everyone generally liking everyone. Friends in this period were almost exclusively from Norwayne/Aycock.

Shadoe Era - Shadoe, who will most likely never read this, would probably rather me not publicly talk about how important he has been to me, but its the truth and I am forever in his debt for it. This period began in March of my sophomore year and was the result of a falling out between my "Aycock friends" and I (I was an ass to you guys, I'm sorry) and a chance meeting between Shadoe Stewart and I while taking the ACT. This period was characterized by near constant hanging out with Shadoe and the plethora of people I met through him. This period of time also saw the development of my musical taste and my love for live music. The Shadoe era was the result of me being connected to many, many people through Shadoe's myriad connections in Goldsboro. The people I met in this period (Stoan, Cara, Leo, Daniel, Ryan...etc.) are still incredibly important to me and still hold a spot in my heart for having given me the best period of my life to date (Spring '07). This era ended in August of 2007 when Shadoe, Paul, Roland, Dia and all the other class of '07-ers left for school.

Aycock Era II - This friend era began in August of 2007 as I began my final year of secondary education at Charles B. Aycock High School. During this time I changed quite a bit and was able to make goodwith many of the friends I had become dissenchanted with during the previous year and a half. This was a period of highs and lows and was absolutely not without its shitty moments. However, this period also saw the development of the COT  ( consisting of approximately : Stephen, Drake, Blake, Rusty, Leo, Nate, Roo and a couple more ). This band of young men helped me to grow and were the only reason I was able to deal with the stress on senior-work. Broing (bro - ing) down with these guys in addition to spending time with the girls I could still put up with ( I love you Stephanie Rains ) made up my entire senior year....and it was ballin.

Hybrid Era - this era began after graduation and lasted throughout the summer prior to my leaving for college. This era was beautiful because it saw the combination of the "Shadoe" and "Aycock" friend groups in full force. As far as senior summers go, I doubt that they could get much better than this one. A specific highlight I would like to mention was the six-day stretch where I played Hot Gay Sex with several other young men every single night and immediately went to Sonic where we proceeded to devour copious ammounts of slushies and cheese coneys. Note: In this period I met Jordan Weller...who just called me...he's a really good guy.

Campbell Era 1.0 - This is the era I now consider myself in and as such I shall not discuss it in detail here. I will give my view on my current friend/hangout/people situation in a later entry.

So there you have it. Thats how I've gotten where I am now. I want to again thank everyone who has been a part of my life to this point and I also want to stress that if you were not mentioned specifically, do not be offended. If you must know, ask me what era you fall under. (See thats called interaction, it's my way or rewarding anyone who has read this far)

I love you guys. More than you'll ever know. 

End 

If you have taken the time to read this entire post, you are the man and you have my permissions to high five me upon sight. I'm about to roll out and see some friends at Jordan Carr's place. I'm thinking the next blog will deal heavily with music...so stay tuned if you like Otis Redding (you BETTER like Otis Redding)

You guys are so pretty,

Carl Teachey